Thank you all! I'm starting to think maybe that's why they wouldn't disfellowship me. They knew I could appeal it. Not a bad strategy. Next move is mine. I'm going to take a breather and let my accusers forget what they had said. Only the ones that were at my jc are the only ones that are invited to come back for round two. In the mean time I am trying to edit out the two times I had to go to the washroom as well as when I got into the car I cursed a bad word and they don't need to hear that. That's really not me. I will wait to see what my rights are. Just waiting back from the lawyer.
I mean seriously, if all the other accusers were a no show and everyone of the twenty-five accusers were all like minded that I discouraged the pioneers then what does that tell you folks? The accusers that had shown up at my hearing either got thrown out or couldn't remember. It's no wonder the others wouldn't come for there was no evidence period!
I had a bad day today emotionally and I will recooperate. Hey, I've had to live in a van at the auto wreckers for almost a year after runninig away from home at fifteen because of my father. I had to survive. This was not that bad since I wasn't in a desperate state like I was back when I was fifteen. Not knowing anyone and hitchhiking into town until I found an empty van to live in. Got one meal a day from a greek restaurant owner. Came down with mono and thought I was dying. Whew! Nothing seems as bad as that anymore. It was just so sad to see these elders hide behind these young kids. It wasn't the kids fault but the elders knew how we loved them. We have no kids of our own and couldn't believe the situation they were in. I mean they were shaking and crying and were even asking the elders what do they want them to say to me. They even came over to me and gave me a hug in the parking lot. I know they felt bad.
The elders got their reward in full. I've decided that I will not be giving the co my letter and tape recording but it will be going to the service department at the bethel. But I need time. When we're done cutting out those two parts then I will go in person and give it to the overseer there. If anything they need to see what really happens and probably won't do anything but maybe give the co an aaa kicking. I'de love it if the co's are trained not to listen to any recordings and bethel finds out this one asked for mine.
One other sad thing that happened was the one funeral I had to go to was a study of mine. She took her life. The family wants to know what happened with her almost eight hundred thousand dollars that she had. All her money plus her building( about 300,000.00) apparently went to a JW who had told her she could no longer come to any congregation picnics as long as she was smoking. I deeply felt disturbed for this gal for she knew of a sister who was able to have her study there and she was smoking and another gal who was being studied with for over two years, had two kids and was living common-law and she was able to go to this lame congregation picnic. This gal was also an alchoholic and drug abuser and never knew her real family. She had a horrible horrible life. And the sister who had studied with her had also studied with me until I told her no more. We would go over to her place on weekends and they would get drunk. One thing you don't do is talk poorly of an elders wife by stateing the true facts. Oh well, she's in a better place than all of us. To think we have to live to die.